my first

this morning i wake up early cuz i want to visit interfood exhibition,reunion with haldin colleague.I drive my self.. on my way i received sms from cathy asking if i go to Tumbur(My ex) and mia weeding party this afternoon..they don't invite me..why should i go???

suddenly it reminds me to all that have been done in the past..FUNNY...VERRY FUNNY....finally they get marriage...:) congratz to both of u ;) believe it or not...there's no sadness on me...;)

in exhibition, there's a lot of food...i'm full enough trying free samples from them.. ;) around 2 o'clock i go home...a little bit traffic..and suddenly..BUMB!! I hit yaris car,infront of my car.It is my fault...i say sorry...i knew it'snot enough..i'm asking how much i shold pay..?then the man, told me "I don't need cash"

Ok..then.. so what should i do..???

we have to go to police..

ok.. if you want to..

actually there's ascratched,but it's a small one..it's not a big problem that should bring to police...please man...!!! make it simple..i will pay for the repair...

in the police station,i'm just telling the truth..it is my fault, what else should i offer to them...then the man told me, this lady didn't want to pay the damages.

Hey!!!!! u told me u didn't want the cash!!!OLD MAN!!

then i asked him to wait me to take some cash in ATM,he follows me to atm, then he asked how much u take from atm (what's ur business..????!!) i just told 1 million,they're smilling suddenly (DAMN!!!)

I'm just asking how much i should pay..??what is the details...??? he just told ok.. just give us 1 million..

WHAT??!!if i'm taking 1 million doesn't mean i have to give all to YOU!!!!

give me the details...

the old man told me...ok..i have to pay for assurance claim 250.ooo (which i knew it's only 200.ooo!!) then, taxi to pick the children to the school 100.ooo/day, approximate it takes 3 days to repair,so total 750.oo

WHAT???!!! DO YOU THINK I'M STUPID????!!!

250+300 it's only 550!!! and u also have to pay gasoline if u bring ur own car RIGHT????!!!!

They're really annoyed me!!hhmmmm I’m just crying and i call my uncle...,,at that time i'm just thinking..he's the only one who could help me.. and it's true..it’s only takes 15 min then he came to the police station, asking the old silly man..and just pay all the costs…

Well….it’s MY FIST ACCIDENT….

ada-ada saja...

hari ini hampir semuanya menguji kesabaran..tapi jadi lucu kalau diingat-ingat. dimulai dari jauh-jauh kedepok untuk ngebenerin laptop yang rusak,ternyata masih tutup,ditengah jalan diklasonin orang karena mati mesin...sampai digudang barang yang mau diambil belum rapi, kunjungan ke customer di daerah yang terpencil dan... macet total...hahhaha...jadi satu hari ini ga kekantor,,,sepertinya besok akan seperti itu juga.. ;)
tapi seru juga...lucunya lagi ada "teman baru" di list skype ku.. ga lain: Mr HOW, BOS ku.... haaarrggghh....begitu online malam ini saja dia langsung tanya yang macam-macam...
besok juga akan jadi hari yang melelahkan tapi menarik..latihan paduan suara.....tapi gawat ga ada lagu yang sudah ku hafal...matilah..bisa-bisa diomelin lagi sama bang bonar..
kemungkinan ada latihan tambahan di hari kamis dan jumat acara perpisahan ika sebelum dia pindah ke kalimantan...
minggu ini akan ada 2 pameran yang mau aku liat: interfood...sekalian reunian sama anak-anak Haldin...dan...cosmo beaute...mencari calon customer.. :P

hhmmm....eb\nak banget nih klo bisa pijit hari minggu...beeeuugghh mantap... :P

Nice :)

Come stop your crying
It will be all right
Just take my hand Hold it tight

I will protect you
from all around you
I will be here
Don't you cry

For one so small,
you seem so strong
My arms will hold you,
keep you safe and warm
This bond between us
Can't be broken
I will be here
Don't you cry

'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more

You'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart, always

Why can't they understand
the way we feel
They just don't trust
what they can't explain
I know we're different but,
deep inside us
We're not that different at all

And you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more

Don't listen to them
'Cause what do they know
We need each other,
to have, to hold
They'll see in time
I know

When destiny calls you
You must be strong
I may not be with you
But you've got to hold on
They'll see in time
I know
We'll show them together

'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on,
Now and forever more

Oh, you'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be in my heart, always
Always

241010

weekend ini cukup memiliki kesibukan tersendiri buatku....
hari sabtu pagi memberanikan diri membawa mobil ke jakarta berdua dgn dessy, tanpa sim dan tanpa stnk..:) dan akhirnya tiba di kantor mama dengan selamat :) namun pas pulang banyak polisi menghadang.. olah raga jantung banget.. takut di stop.. :D dengan sok cool pakai kacamata hitam berusaha rileks untuk mengelabui polisi..hahah...bayangin aja 5 polisi dititik yang berbeda... namun PUJI TUHAN SELAMAT...hahaha...

mampir ke spa kecil diserpong untuk luluran.. badan berasa bersih.. ya..lumayanlah buat ngelunturin debu2 yang nempel..dilanjut dengan chatting dgn Gabor (temen sharing yang baik.. :)) sempet ngerasa sangat senang punya "teman" seperti dia...agak2 kagum dengan seorang bule yang tidak merokok,pekerja keras,rajin gereja, bahkan bukan pemabuk..bahkan sptnya ada ketertarikan...tapii jauuuh boooo...
kita sharing ttg persoalan masing-masing...sayang harus terputus karena keterbatasan earphone.. hhehehe...dan juga aku harus ngajar ngajar paduan suara sekolah minggu...cape banget karena anak sekolah minggu yang diajar kali ini umurnya masih kecil2... :( agak susah diajak serius...sementara kalau aku ngajar harus serius... :( tantangan buat ku..

minggu pagi di gereja berkotbahlah tentang kelakuan anak kepada orang tua dan diingatkan lagi tentang hukum taurat yang ke 5..ga enak ya klo jadi jemaat yang terdakwa dengan kotbah yang disampaikan.. hahahhah..dalam hati ku..bodo ah...aku masih belum ingin berdamai dengan dia..
ternyataaaa sesampai dirumah nantulang dibahas lagi soal "kenapa kamu masih tidak ngomongin bapa mu????" UUUrrggghhh rasanya mau kaburrrrrr....secara tidak langsung mereka memaksaku minta maaf sama bapa....

hhhmmmmhhhhhhhhhh....akhirnya aku mengalah dan aku minta maaf...tapi kenapa ya.. setelah aku minta maaf, bapa malah nyinggung2 soal laki2 brengsek itu lagi..????makin tambah kesel aja jadinya.....................................
hhmmhhhh sudah lah.. yang penting aku sudah minta maaf, meskipun sebenarnya dihatiku.. aku masih belum bisa terima kata2 yang dia ucapkan.

setelah dari rumah nantulang... ke gereja lagi ngajar anak-anak nyanyi lagi..hari ini sepertinya lebih baik dari kemarin..:)
lanjut kunjungan kerumah pengantin baru lenny dan indra..disana ada lisra dan suami, yuli dan suami, ika yang sedang hamil, doris dan tunangannya,semuanya guru-guru sekolah minggu dan hanya aku dan shanti yang masih single berasa aneh dan janggal..ntah mengapa...

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My 1st concert

Teman-teman......
tanggal 4 Desember 2010 aku akan ikut dalam konser TRINITI Choir yang ke 10!!
Bersyukur bisa ikut paduan suara dibawah bimbingan Bonar Sihombing. Aku di sopran 2,selama ini kami pelayanan dari gereja ke gereja menaikkan puji-pujian.. seru.. :)

Di konser ini kami akan menyanyikan 18 lagu!!! hahaha....dan harus hafal.. karena kalau nanyi dengan text adalah haram hukumnya.. :)

Kalau Tuhan mengijinkan tahun depan akan menjadi konser yang ke 11 dan akan tercatat dalam rekor MURI... :)

Go Triniti Choir!!

Untuk yang mau nonton..tiketnya murah koq..200rb atau kalau mau yang VIP 500rb/orang...

contact me.. :)

Do your best and let God take the rest

This is my 6^th month working in PT avantchem as technical sales for personal care industries. Not only selling but I also have to support them technically,which means i have to know all the process they have and understanding their needs, for me with my analytical chemical and industrial engineering background, it’s totally different and little bit difficult, although I already work for 4 years as technical marketing for beverage industries on my previous job,but this one quite new for me…actually it’s really excited!

In this company I didn’t get higher position than my last job (assistant manager) even for the salary.. :P it’s just interested for me to learn new things ,here I get my own operational car..even I can not drive.. :P at least I have something to ride and all the gasoline and high way covered.. and little amount for entertainment budged..:) which after I calculated total amount I get it’s bigger than my last job.

Interesting for me to meet people, negotiate with a lot kind of character people..some of them are nice bit not little of them that BELAGU but that’s the challenge..

After works for 3 months I was trained to bangkok, where our principle’s technical center placed.it was my first overseas traveling.. :P nice place to visit…nice culture,,,GOOD FOOD.. :P and also excellent place to shopping hahahah…

I have some pictures on my facebook..I named the album “is it traveling or training” because most of the time for visiting palace,temples and shopping place..hahaha

On sales team I have one partner with me..she’s 2 y.o older than me…having 2 cute sons.at the first she’s very kind to me..but I was shocked when I heard news from the customer(s) that she told bad things about me..still can not understand why she did it….

I felt there’s no personal problem between me and her…it’s true that I’m not convenience with the way she work..but I never disturb her..even her account…i just do what I should do..

well…it’s a work wold..welcome to the jungle lely..:P

I won’t let anyone underestimate on me…we’ll see…I have my God work on me…of course as long as i keep doing my best…

hurt

just let it go...why you keep search all information about him..???!!!!
now you saw their picture on facebook...what for..??!!!!!

please...stop hurting yourself...
just focus to your work.....Do not believe anymore to all that you called love!! it's all bullshit!!

you can do it by your self!!
you're strong enough!!


Dear Lord..I felt tired
I need something new...I want to go out from all these sucks memories!!

penikahan

pernikahan itu bukan hal yang mudah..komitmen amat penting dalam menjalani ini.. ketika Tuhan memberkati 2 menjadi 1, kita harus bisa mempertanggung jawabkan itu..apa yang sudah disatukan oleh Tuhan tidak dapat diceraikan oleh manusia...

untuk orang batak, bukan hanya komitmen yng diperlukan.. namun ada rangkaian upacara adat yang harus dilakukan...semua keluarga besar berkumpul... berpesta dan "ulos" dibagikan...

foto diatas ketika adik mama yang paling kecil menikah...

lengkap dengan kebaya dan sanggul..pesta seharian...tapi selalu mengharukan buatku setiap menghadiri pesta pernikahan batak..apalagi moment ketika orang tua perempuan memberi ulos pada anaknya sebagai simbol perpisahan...

gimana ya kalau cowo nya orang asing terus diulosin.....seru kali yaaa....

^_^

DREAMING! :P

My Hero

Mama...you know how much I love you!!

Di waktu ku kecil, gembira dan senang Tiada duka kukenal, tak kunjung mengerang

Disore hari nan sepi....ibuku terbelut

Sujud berdoa ku dengar namaku disebut

Di doa ibuku, namaku disebut Di doa ibuku kudengar, ada namaku disebut

Sering ini kukenang, di masa yang berat Di kala hidup mendesak dan nyaris kutersesat

Melintas gambar ibuku, sewaktu bertelut

Kembali sayup kudengar, ....namaku disebut Di sore hari nan sepi... ibuku bertelut

Sujud berdoa ku dengar namaku disebutDi doa ibuku, namaku disebut

Di doa ibuku dengar ada namaku disebut....Ada namaku di sebut

Di doa ibuku, namaku disebut Di doa ibuku kudengar, ada namaku disebut

It is Well

When peace, like a river, attendeth my way, when sorrows like sea billows roll; whatever my lot, thou hast taught me to say, It is well, it is well with my soul.


It is well with my soul, it is well, it is well with my soul.


My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought! My sin, not in part but the whole, is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more, praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!

It is well with my soul, it is well, it is well with my soul.


And, Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight, the clouds be rolled back as a scroll; the trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend, even so, it is well with my soul.

It is well with my soul, it is well, it is well with my soul.

It's my life

I've never done this before...blogging about my feeling...doesn't mean i want to publish and tell this to all the world..
feels so stupid..but i need this...
saat ini aku merasa hidup yg aku jalani spt tidak ada sstu yang sedang aku kejar didepan..merasa bosan dengan semua yg aku hadapi..
bagi keluarga ku aku bukan anak yg pantas dibanggakan...aku blm bisa membuat orang tuaku bahagia..kekecewaan ku yg menumpuk kepada bapaku membuatku susah untuk menghargai dia..
ga tidak tahu apa yg bisa membuat kedua org tuaku bahagia..
mungkin mereka sudah sangat kecewa denganku... sampai mengeluarkan sumpah serapahnya..sebagai anak aku sudah kehilangan kepercayaan diriku...

diusia 25 tahun, aku menjadi seorang asisten manager disebuah perusahaan swuasta menurutku itu merupakan prestasi tersendiri buatku..sampai aku memutuskan untuk berubah haluan ke bidang marketing..memperoleh fasilitas kendaraan..orang melihatku sebagai seorang perempuan yg beruntung dan berhasil..mereka tdk tahu apa yg aku hadapi...
dunia pekerjaanku bukan hal yang mudah karena ini merupakan dunia baru buat ku..aku banyak mendapat tantangan...bukan hal yg mudah buatku ditengah keadaan keluargaku dan kehidupan berpasanganku..

ketika aku menaruh percaya kpd seorang lelaki..kecewa yg ku dpat
memang kami memulai dgn menyakiti hati perempuan lain..dan dia mengulangi hal itu lagi kepada ku..
perhatiannya beralih kebentuk pukulan..
terkadang dlm hati aku berkata..mungkin aku mmg tidak pantas untuk dihargai...

saat ini aku menjalani hidupku dengan kkosongan..
menjalani sst tanpa tahu apa yg sdg ku kejar didepan..
i need new life...
i need new spirit....................